As you all know, I like to make my posts fun and interesting. I started this blog 2 summers ago to journal my travels, which I feel I have done pretty well. Sadly, I haven't been anywhere since March...I know, I sound stuck-up, snobby, whatever...I don't care. I haven't posted anything of true excitement cuz I've been bored out of my skull with life. I've been bored since 2007 and have struggled to find what I'm actually good at, and have struggled to find my confidence. "Fake it till you make it." Let's just say I've been faking for a long time.
I used all of my traveling to help squelch, quench, distract myself from my unhappiness, confusion, disappointment with life. I've been wracking my brain for months trying to think of blog post ideas, but instead of forcing another post about being excited about new a shirt, a funny commercial, or my disappointment towards the future 40 degree & below weather, I thought I'd let you in on a little secret.
I wasn't going to say anything till I was 100% sure of this, but screw it. I've applied for a teaching job in the UAE with a 2 year commitment. Over the summer I got TEFL Certified to teach internationally, and in July (?) I applied to teach English or [hopefully] Math/Science to 3rd/4th grade Emirati students. I passed the phone interview back in August, and was informed my face-to-face interview will be in early October. The end of September slowly arrived with no interview date, so I emailed the program to learn my interview has now been pushed back to late October/early November.
All I want to know is if I can start packing. IF I get the job I would leave in Dec/Jan and pretty much start immediately. I want to get excited and be excited, but life has happened too much that I've learned to be guarded with everything. [Jaded much?]
I've been applying for jobs for the past 3 summers. Have you applied for a job lately? It's a bitch on the soul. Don't get me wrong...I've found contentment with the newness every year, and I enjoy meeting new people, but I just want to land 1 job for more than a year.
I know I'm being whiny, but I will say I've matured over these years. I'm measuring this because I'm not sitting at Wall Street right now, or sleeping in a tent in Dallas. That's right...be proud!!! But don't worry...I'm still filled with comments that'll make your eyes roll.
Now that you're aware of this info, I'm gonna need you to pray. Pray for peace within myself as I wait, and pray the organization will hurry and call me for the interview!
I've given you one thing you can do while you wait with me, so please don't feel obligated to give me cliche statements to help ease me. I've heard 'em all and used 'em all. Just pray.
Thanks...hopefully my next post will be filled with positive news.